I know what I want. I knew it since back then.

I wanted to have a life like a friend but never happened.

It happened for quite some time, now that I'm here,

I think I'm ruining my bright side.

I have cheated myself, I blamed myself, now I feel

everything is unbalanced, it is to one side.

The first, it was the first day of last month.

Subsequent, I felt more like frequent.

It went really far that I can't keep track of the time, the day

and the date.

I can't focus or control, I let everything passed like fate.

My head's spinning now. The room spins when I get down.

Fuck myself, I'm really stuck myself, I'm dirty myself.

Batteries gone flat there we were so tired.

Perfect position in ways, perfect dimension.

Calls coming in the morning, so stubborn I didn't answer.

I thought it wouldn't be so bad but that was at first.

Now I'm seating alone thinking what to do,

thinking what to say, how do I do?

What is on my mind, what do I do,

What do I have to do to make it up.

I told myself in time that I have to prove,

that I have to do what I'm s'pose to do.

I've lost all the trust, the dignity after all these.

I couldn't forgive myself for what I did,

Sweetie said that I'm ruining myself.

I spend time doing shit after shit after work,

getting tired, now exhausted,

I made a promise with the ocean to help me out with the memories.

I made myself.